What do I do now?

Well I guess I am struggling with the fact of not having someone there for me like I have had the last 5 years. It is really hard when you let someone in on your life like that and then you have to just let that person go. They know they hold all of your little secrets and have all the power in the world to destroy you. I think I am being destroyed but I don't know. I feel like it, she has been on my mind every day and I can't help but think that I let her slip away. I think my life can be summed up at this point by the song from Keith Anderson, "I Still Miss You". I think this is just a phase but it seems like no matter how much she tells me and hurts me something keeps taking me back to her. I don't know what it is but something is telling me she is the one. But the problem is I don't think she feels the same way. I have been trying to move on, its hard after you spend a quarter of your life thus far with someone. Its hard to fill that exact void that that person left inside of you. As I see it now, I dont think anyone could fill that void. But I guess I will just have to press on and wait? Or do I press on and look forward? Its just hard, I think I am having my mid life crisis at 21..haha I have to work my but off to get into the apartment I want, but that is not coming easy, hard to stay as busy as I need to be. I have everything I need to do for graduation from WMU, if I get all my classes taken, I have medical school stuff I need to be focused on like the MCAT, registration for fall classes at Western and Valley, studying for my MCAT class that I am taking. There is just an overwhelming amount of work to be done.. Not that I can't handle it its just hard to come home to mom and dads and not have that someone there to talk with to ask me about my day, or to eat dinner with and then go to bed with at night. Kinda depressing, I am used to doing alot of things that I want/need to do on my own but after you have let someone in who helps take some of the burden off of you and then it all shifts back to you it becomes a struggle, like getting caught under the pool cover when you need air. I just have it kind of rough right now, and I don't have really any friends who care or a best friend now to sit and talk with about what is going on. I have lost the bestfriend. The only thing that is really keeping me going is the saying: "When you are down to nothing, God is up to something..."

Guapo!

Wow, its been a while since I last posted..looks like I need to keep better track of this thing!
Anyway, for those of you who are not familiar with the Spanish language "guapo" means good looking or hansome in spanish..This is also the name of the new addition to the family, well Becca and I's family. It's another CAT!!! He is a little bit younger than our previous rescue or adoption how ever you want to look at it. He is about a year old (on the 21st of April) and chip turned a year in March. So not much of an age difference. He is another short hair with kind of the same markings as chip. He is black and white and loves attention, trust me he will let you know if hes not getting enough attention, the meowing seems to never stop with him. We rescued him from the Kalamazoo Animal Rescue with the name Romeo but we decided that would be no longer..obviously..so..

We had our first boo boo less than 24 hours after we got him..and boy was it an expensive one. He started at 12AM meowing constantly every 5 seconds and would not stop! So we opened the door to the rest of the apartment and that stopped him for a whole 10 minutes. He came right back in the bedroom and say on the chest meowing.. So we got Chip out and all they did was hiss and growl at each other. So we closed guapo out into the hallway and kept chip with us.. Finally 20 minutes of sleep..to be interupted with glass breaking. Becca got up and ran to the kitchen to inspect the damage.....no cat... Adam (other roomate) had him in the bathroom with him. I cam out and there was bloody footprints all the way under the bed. I grabbed him noticing blood all over his hind paw and inspected the damage. He had cut the large pad on the bottom of his foot and up between two of his toes. So I wrapped it in a towel held his foot in the air and squeezed it to stop the bleeding. I stopped the bleeding and was going to set him down when it started gushing out again. So we ended up calling the emergency room (for pets) and took him in. Doc said he would need surgery cause it was a sensitive area and he would need deep and superficial stitches...330 dollars later he returned home with his new bright orange cast! What an adventure! I will post a couple pictures of the two studs, when I get them on the computer!

Woops!

I almost forgot to mention that I woodburned the horse in the front of the chest, so I guess that is part of why these constructions have been custom!

JG Custom Woodworking!

Well I have now taken up the buisness of wood working, and the title of this is the name of my new shop located at 28194 31st ST Gobles. Well not really but I have been building away on some special orders and they are still coming in.
My first project was a Christmas gift that I made for Becca, it was a blanket chest made out of oak veenered plywood. It is 2'x4' and like dad said it is made like a bomb shelter. Here are some photos:







After this project I built an entertainment center for Becca's parents. It was pretty tricky because it needed to fit in a corner, but we got it figured out and it looks and works great. I will have to post some pictures later since I don't have any on my computer yet.
My next project is to build a couple shelfs for the cabinet in the back room so mom can put her music in there.
I also have an order to build some night stands for Becca's bed set, that are round and incorporate 12x12 ceramic tiles. I will post pictures of the following upon completion! Enjoy!